regret

if anyone could read me, inside out, notice my feelings crystal-clear, could see how im feeling right now, then yeah, i regret not going to the flea. i heavily and deeply regret. sure, i saved money from splurging on clothes but i value my time to enjoy much rather than making other people happy. they say, think of yourself before thinking of others. am i considered godly, special, one of a kind for not abiding those rules?