shut up

you know those kind of moments where you just feel so down ALL OF A SUDDEN and its like you dont understand what caused you to be like that and you kind of know its not pms that's causing it but its just..someone and for some reason you just feel so beaten down and then there's like so many things bottled up in you and the only thing that can make you feel better is just sleep. but i hate sleep. sleep doesnt make me happy. in fact nothing ever has.

everyone's so frickin annoying right now its like i go to twitter and see bees just all up in my face and i want to sting them with my own power but in the end its me who get hurt cause i get stung back. its like im frickin sick right now and ppl think im faking it. its like everyone in the world just hates you and you dont know wth you did. its like when you play monopoly deal and you put the deal breaker and you're one set away from winning and the chosen player just slaps u down with a just say no card and you feel like such an idiot, you just feel like you're not frickin sane anymore and you know you're not a soreloser but the fact that you're so worked up is just that you hav already tried your best but then..your best is not frickin good enough. feeling that just burns me. it burns me down. and no one can bring me back up again cause every method is just plain useless and its like you just cant feel anything anymore except defeat and the next thing you wanna do is just go dead. yeah thats what im feeling now.