starting of the mid year

Today marks the start of mid year. well, not really actually. and the best part of this week will most probably be the fact that there is no school on wednesday as our sch is being used for some polling thing- something i actually have no clue about but clue no clue, im just thankful there's no sch on wednesday. i can finally clear more doubts and grasp some better understanding on some things ;)

so today was our paper 1 for our language papers. i think i especially put my best in my malay factual compositions and the word "COMPACT" was inside my head hence i really really really want my paragraphs to be full of elaboration and detail. i hope 12 lines of the foolscap per paragraph is long enough. i got a bruise from writing too much and i dont know if thats a good thing or not! i think my english composition was kinda retarded. i lied about my number of words! i cant believe i wrote less than 350 words! writing above 350 was totally NOT a problem for me cos i talk a lot an incorporate it in my compositions which means my compos will usually be lengthy. i guess i was extra cautious of writing too much. perhaps, too cautious :| 

dont really wanna talk much about the papers today. i do think i put in my best though. my papers continue this friday. im left with not much time. wish me luck xx 

Mid year hasnt really officially started. here i am thinking what should i do when it ends. hmmmm i should srsly stop all this nonsensical fantasies that surround me. i wanna play.......TEKKEN

how i wish i could

Here i am. basically just telling everyone that im dying for math. how i wish i could be born smart and intellectual. there isnt anything much to say so i guess i should get back to revising my ss. and seeing or hearing people studying so hard really kills me. it kills me so hard, harder than a bullet piercing through my heart, harder that a knife stabbing my freaking back. yeah...you get the idea.

it just kills me.

library day

im not feeling very good right now at the moment. math is really making my head go all topsy turvey. and now i really pray i can get at least a C for my math cos further trigo is too difficult. im motivated though for history and ss since i really do wanna go germany and party like a rockstar. i think im going to ask ms farinna for help in my indices. cos i think thats pretty much the only thing thats really wrecking my brain. not too confident for english since i have not been reading books. yeahh it really sux to be me :( im one unorganized person and i dont know how to get back to those old days when nothing was at all such a problem to me. when i was in sec 1 i swear everything was so easy that getting a C or B4 was impossible. while im writing this post, i really feel a wave of emotions cmg to me. and my eng paper is on monday. i really worry. thats not like me at all. i never worry for english. cos i know i'll always ace it. but right now.......i dont know. anything can happen. but i challenge myself however, i really challenge myself. if only the teachers could see that. i'll get an A for determination. and my report card will be crystal clean.

I look like a baby. well. I want to be a baby

back for n hr

I get really agitated easily at this moment. must be because of the exams. now i dont know whats been happening since i lost my mind map mojo. i used to be able to do mind maps so well now it looks like its all squeezed and not worth reading. kinda irritates me that we have to memorize a lot for history too. its like my brain and words just dont go together. right now i dont really know which subject i shud start on. perhaps i'll just continue my history or my ss since im rlly in no mood to solve and get frustrated over equations a.k.a math. maybe just maybe i need a break. but then the guilt of having a break kills me. i feel like fainting so i can be put on a stretcher and get sent to a hospital, yknow try smtg new. cos this feeling of not being able to motivate myself and not getting things done or feeling smart enough is getting old. 

Hmm cant help feeling this way

I just took a shower and i smell like a baby. i think im falling in love with myself.

first up i have no idea how natt can sprain her ankle hahah seeing her walk slower than a snail breaks my heart! and there was napha today which was mad annoying. ok the only thing that was annoying was 2.4km. i regret every single time i walked instead of jogged cos......ya i was just too tired! i think i failed which was a total waste cos i think i did pretty ok for my 5 stations. someone enlighten me why girls need to run 2.4km. i highly doubt we'll need to apply this in our life. and we dont go for ns. so i dont understand why we need to run long distances.

i hate jogging. i hate long distance running. im having second thoughts about going jc now cos they have mass pe. anyway eunice will be helping me in my 2.4 and sit ups while i help her in sbj and pull ups ;) and we collected our class shirts today and i think its very cute ;)



This just in: Im mad tired

hottie meets naughty

I talked a lot of stuff to gossip girl today oh and not to mention, i did 20 sit ups. k la not bad for a sit up noob like me. hmm mye is next week. why am i not feeling any stress yet.

dead

Doing trigo just kills me brain cells. i do not like it. but it does give me an effect of the result of studying hard hence it makes me feel smart. but i guess only for a few minutes then im all blonde and dumb again. nah im not saying blondes are dumbs.

OK SO ANYWAY today was kind of a celebration for my sis and bro who just turned 22 and 20 respectively. scares me a bit actually. i mean. you just cant control age. i still remember how things were like in the past when my bro was like still in secondary school and my sis was still in jc. it seems so long ago....well yeah it IS long ago. but.......sigh i just really want the world to revolve slowly slowly slowly.

OK WE HAD PIZZA HUT. wanted to order domino's but................

I had 3 pizza's, 1 rodeo wing, a few tortilla chips, 2 garlic bread pieces, cheese and like before that i had 4 large cookies from some american cookie brand then previously i had rice. which overall makes me a fatso wannabe but no i dont think i gained anything. k la wtv la i not showing off ok. i think i did gain a few....grams. or maybe i gained more. anw napha's on tuesday. which means im totally screwed.