Friday, January 20, 2012
This week
This week was horrible. Friends were fine though, just that i didnt study shit. Too tired to complete most of my homework and that made me horrible. I now know how those, i shall say "professional slackers" feel. After a few times of not handing up their work, they go with the flow and just dont bother anymore. I have felt that feeling. And i never want to be a part of that feeling ever again.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
My confidante
Dear diary,
This weekend flew by in a blink of an eye. I managed to get a few things done but at the same time, i learnt that my priorities are all over the place. I did study a little but it hurts to know that what i got out of doing math, was the fact that i suck in it.
I didnt do any of my homework and this feeling right now that i am having is eating me alive. I feel so guilty. Its like a guilt i've never faced. Ms farinna is going to hate me and pick on me even more and ms nurul will ask me to stay back after school to do her work. I dont like the idea of being a delinquent. Even if its only just for a day.
Do i weigh a ton that gets in the way of getting my ass up to complete my work? Am i of a bum so lazy that lying in bed is the only prize i can get? I have aspirations so ambitious and a career path so detailed planned out in front of me. But im not doing anything about it. My sense of urgency is not inside me, and i lack motivation. Oh dearest diary, what has happened to me? Bring me back to what i was like, 3 years ago and make me the smartest girl everyone will not know off.
With love.
This weekend flew by in a blink of an eye. I managed to get a few things done but at the same time, i learnt that my priorities are all over the place. I did study a little but it hurts to know that what i got out of doing math, was the fact that i suck in it.
I didnt do any of my homework and this feeling right now that i am having is eating me alive. I feel so guilty. Its like a guilt i've never faced. Ms farinna is going to hate me and pick on me even more and ms nurul will ask me to stay back after school to do her work. I dont like the idea of being a delinquent. Even if its only just for a day.
Do i weigh a ton that gets in the way of getting my ass up to complete my work? Am i of a bum so lazy that lying in bed is the only prize i can get? I have aspirations so ambitious and a career path so detailed planned out in front of me. But im not doing anything about it. My sense of urgency is not inside me, and i lack motivation. Oh dearest diary, what has happened to me? Bring me back to what i was like, 3 years ago and make me the smartest girl everyone will not know off.
With love.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Outstanding
No matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, life always finds a way to bite you in the ass and remind you that life wont be easy and the only way to carry through it is to be as humble as you can be and appreciate how far you have gone.
No matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, you are dumped for someone sexier
No matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, there will be more thunder than sunshine by your side.
No matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, there will always be someone happier than you.
And no matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, you dont love yourself as much as you should.
Cause no matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, you are you. And no one can take that away from you and no one can carry yourself better than you.
To my dearest class partner, i hope you dont cry anymore.
And to me, dont ruin the child-like innocence that i posess. Dont ruin me. And take me to more humble beginnings. I thank god for getting me inside danceworks. I thank god.
No matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, you are dumped for someone sexier
No matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, there will be more thunder than sunshine by your side.
No matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, there will always be someone happier than you.
And no matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, you dont love yourself as much as you should.
Cause no matter how outstanding and charismatic you are, you are you. And no one can take that away from you and no one can carry yourself better than you.
To my dearest class partner, i hope you dont cry anymore.
And to me, dont ruin the child-like innocence that i posess. Dont ruin me. And take me to more humble beginnings. I thank god for getting me inside danceworks. I thank god.
Another post to make you angry
Its going to be pretty controversial this time round. I have already warned you. If you get angry with me, directly tweet to me through twitter and dont indirectly accuse me for having a heart so mean.
As some of you may know, im homophobic. In case you all dont know what that means, it just means that i have a range of negative attitudes and feelings towards homosexuality and ppl who are identified as or perceived as being homosexual.
Everyone keeps on comparing prostitution with gay marriages and i think its a really ridiculous comparison because obviously gay marriages sound better than prostitution cause prostitution can kill you. Its the same thing as me asking you if you like tomatoes or your own bed. One, there's no link and secondly, of course you will freaking choose your bed. Same thing with prostituting and gay marriages. If someone asked me which one shud be banned, obv prostitution cause its done by all ages and marriage is smtg you can only tend to enter into when you're legal.
Comparison aside, i dont think gay marriages should be allowed. Yeah i do get it that people cant control themselves, they cant control who they like but people do know what is right from wrong. But since society is so f-ed up nowadays, you teach a dumb person, he/she'll get smart but if you teach someone so stubborn, the consequences of being obedient is slim. What im saying right now is, people DO know whats right and what is wrong. But they're too stubborn of a character to do anything about it.
Do you guys really find guy + guy kissing such a romantic thing to look at? People support homosexuals cause they dare to do their own thing and they're always out there looking for more attention. They see homos as a source of motivation to be proud of their own identity; to be proud of who they really are. But in my opinion, what they're looking at is just a broken mirror. They cant see themselves clearly and are just blinded by the cracks in between.
God didnt make you this way. You chose to be this way.
And so correct me if you must. I would love to beg to differ such a controversial issue.
As some of you may know, im homophobic. In case you all dont know what that means, it just means that i have a range of negative attitudes and feelings towards homosexuality and ppl who are identified as or perceived as being homosexual.
Everyone keeps on comparing prostitution with gay marriages and i think its a really ridiculous comparison because obviously gay marriages sound better than prostitution cause prostitution can kill you. Its the same thing as me asking you if you like tomatoes or your own bed. One, there's no link and secondly, of course you will freaking choose your bed. Same thing with prostituting and gay marriages. If someone asked me which one shud be banned, obv prostitution cause its done by all ages and marriage is smtg you can only tend to enter into when you're legal.
Comparison aside, i dont think gay marriages should be allowed. Yeah i do get it that people cant control themselves, they cant control who they like but people do know what is right from wrong. But since society is so f-ed up nowadays, you teach a dumb person, he/she'll get smart but if you teach someone so stubborn, the consequences of being obedient is slim. What im saying right now is, people DO know whats right and what is wrong. But they're too stubborn of a character to do anything about it.
Do you guys really find guy + guy kissing such a romantic thing to look at? People support homosexuals cause they dare to do their own thing and they're always out there looking for more attention. They see homos as a source of motivation to be proud of their own identity; to be proud of who they really are. But in my opinion, what they're looking at is just a broken mirror. They cant see themselves clearly and are just blinded by the cracks in between.
God didnt make you this way. You chose to be this way.
And so correct me if you must. I would love to beg to differ such a controversial issue.
Friday, January 6, 2012
My first week
The first week of school was such a drag. Totally didnt start on the syllabus whatsoever so i just wasted my time attending school. However, the whole class watched the movie "The Guardian" which starred Ashton hottie Kutcher inside and the show is practically a show stopper. Eye candy aside, its one of the best movies i've ever watched.
Its getting a bit risky to blog. And my bed has always been there for me. But sometimes also sleep is risky and this year, i dont want to take any chances. Wont blog about my london/paris trip so soon. I figured, it'll take too much time.
Have a great friday night!
Its getting a bit risky to blog. And my bed has always been there for me. But sometimes also sleep is risky and this year, i dont want to take any chances. Wont blog about my london/paris trip so soon. I figured, it'll take too much time.
Have a great friday night!
Monday, January 2, 2012
Senior year
It's finally the time to go back to school and first days are usually everyone's favourite since teachers handle all the miscellaneous activities that are pretty much a breeze and would only require a minimal portion of your lazy brain. It's the first day tomorrow of my senior year and I got myself a new bag again just that this time is a shady colour of purple. But fml I realized my bag is the colour of pedo voiced Barney the purple dinosaur but all's well here in Singapore cause I will spice my bag up by this week. Im thinking bling and white. Hmm whats new right?
Sleep well everyone! You wont wanna fall asleep during assembly when te discipline talks take over. The fricking horror my o levels are months away. I havent even outgrown myself yet so I hope I won't be childish in making decisions. And I hope I won't procrastinate cause man that's so bitchyyyyyyyyyyyy
Sleep well everyone! You wont wanna fall asleep during assembly when te discipline talks take over. The fricking horror my o levels are months away. I havent even outgrown myself yet so I hope I won't be childish in making decisions. And I hope I won't procrastinate cause man that's so bitchyyyyyyyyyyyy
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