i need my beauty sleep

i miss my december very much </3

not that i had december luv or anything but it was where i really genuinely enjoyed every minute. too bad technology's too low and cant be able to provide us a time travel machine. 

summer

i think im just gonna crumble to my crummy self soon. i think i might have entered into my darkest hour. possible depression, feeling rather hot inside. there's like a dragon forming inside me, forcing itself to refrain from coming out. it hurts in every single way possible that in this world im living in, i cant even speak my mind. its either i man up and get punished for being frank or remain a wimp but all broken inside, with all my thoughts getting tangled up with one another. i hav so much in my mind that i cant even spit out in the real world. i have so much in my mind right now that the information hurts. it hurts so much that i could die. it hurts so much to the point that its really literally killing me inside out and the only one i can turn to is myself cause i do know that no one can read me as well as i read myself. dont kid yourself and try to ask me to cheer myself up. i think you do feel pretty happy that im all broken inside. but dont get too happy. i might be broken now but i'll come back better than ever. but most importantly, better than you.

15 facts about me

the title is pretty self-explanatory. am kinda scared to think that you guys might find me self-absorbed since this blog post is pretty much all about me. but, i too need some me love in my life.

1) im girly. somewhat like your typical girly girl nxt door but im not shy. most people hav this stereotype that girly girls are very shy but not for me. i like to be heard.

2) i frickin like to shop. i dont care if the shops are push cart shops or not airconditioned, if it sells nice stuffs, it automatically works.

3) i eat like a guy. but i hav table manners like a girl. so i dont chug down my juice or wolf down my main course which doesnt make me seem so much like a monster :)

4) im mad in luv with rice. it just has to be white, fluffy, sticky and hot. i can eat it plain just like that 

5) im quite sensitive to heat. i think thats one thing ppl dont know about me. i'll tend to get rashes if the heat's too hot. maybe im allergic to the sun WOW.

6) i was in luv with kpop since 2006. im an sm fan girl but  dbsk is #1

7) i hav a thing for chinese guys. not that i hate my own race. its just like...i like pink over yellow. its nothing discriminating or anything i just feel that its my own preference and i dislike ppl who judge heavily on my preference. i tend to get....many...opinions on this one.

8) im one heartless soul. i dont cry during sad movies or get scared easily during horror or gore. the chances of me tearing up are 3% out of a possible 100. but ironically, im quite a crybaby when it comes to personal terms.

9) gimme a track and i'll dance

10) i think lions are sexy

11) i dont like sentosa cause i think its a scary place. its like an alley but, full of fake sunshine.

12) i got quite a big phobia of the water. as in, not the water you bathe in but im scared of oceans, deep seas and sometimes the swimming pool cause i fear there's some crocodile lurking in it )':

13) i always think i hav hair that can fall into place nicely after i flip it back- yknow like all those korean actresses. but i always forget im a total fail in this

14) i dont believe in behaving rude towards elders. i think its highly disrespectful.

15) i cant tell between salty and sweet. sometimes, sour too. i can nvr be a food critic, let alone a chef.

this post may be too lengthy so i'll just..... post pictures of my cousins....wedding HAHA omg im sorry i dont hav any new pics!

boring

My holidays are like rotten chilli. no kick at all!

maybe i need a guy to spice up my life ha ha. and yikes, my hols hav been pretty boring.

josh harris

Haha i dont know if you guys know who this is, but if you watched double dare 2000 when you were a kid, which was like, 11 yrs ago, during the time when tv was still all the rage, then maybe you guys might know who is josh harris.

he was the host of the show and yupp i totally remember him!!!

but guess what?!???
somehow he found my tweet about me missing double dare 2000 and replied to me on twitter!!!! okay maybe to you guys it may not be a huge deal but i was mad happy just now cause he's allegedly a known person which means he is famous! at first i thought maybe he wasnt the real host but i googled it and it was friiiiickin true ok haiiiissshhhhh my life is 1/20 complete :)

which pretty much isnt such a big deal. but still, there's a difference.

anyway it was BV BAZAAR today and apparently it was sucky. i didnt get to try the food from 3e4's stall since it got sold out so fast so that was a bummer for me )': but i did try great hotdogs and managed to whip up a new concoction that me myself i liked - mustard and chilli. i dont know if it was the mustard or the chilli that gave the kick but potato poetahtoe im happy enough.

pictures of me taken with my low quality loved 3 megapixel phone. not like there is anything to be proud of. i think i might hav went a little krazy after the bazaar.

but anywaysssss these photos can give you a good laugh

krazy me at its best

library is not a beneficial place

I HATE THE LIBRARY. OK FINE I KNOW ITS MY FAULT TOO BUT GIVE ME A BREAK IM ONLY 15. I DONT GROW MONEY ON MY NOSE OK. I REPEAT. I DO NOT GROW MONEY.

I WANNA KILL YOU. SO COME TO MY OCEAN AND SING AND WAIT FOR ME TO POP OUT FROM THE SURFACE AND WAIT FOR ME TO LURE YOU IN AND KILL YOU AS I TRANSFORM INTO SOME MERMAID WITCH GODDESS.

FYI

OR A TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLE.

YOU MAY NEVER KNOW.

tv will never be the same again

I get it that the society is getting smarter but it gets on my nerves how nonsensical tv shows are nowadays. the shows nowadays are prolly one of the main reasons why i often head out of the boring house and just hang out. i miss laughing like krazy even if it makes me look uncivilised. i'd rather laugh all i want than be feeling pathetic and bored over the new shows nowadays. the world is moving so fast now, trying to change every single thing to make it more trendy and modern. i dont think they know that, keeping a bit of the trend from the 90's is all that its needed cause the 90's era was seriously the best time where tv shows were raw and effortless when it comes to humour, and not to mention, the world was a better place since water pollution was hardly talked about and the weather was totally totally tolerable. sometimes i wish i dont ever wanna grow up cause i enjoyed every single bit of my childhood. but no, no one can be peter pan in this world since everyone will come to grow up and leave their childhood, but at the same time learn to always remember your kindergarden and primary sch days .i would do whatever it takes to hav that long lasting potion of never growing up since thats the time where your innocence was brilliant and you love everyone. and as i grow older, everything is like a tough obstacle that brings me all the way down and up like a huge rollercoaster ride. thats where i conclude perhaps....nothing is tougher than life and nothing's better than it either. of course, there's heaven but you go through life first and heaven will be there. perhaps it'll wait for you with open gates. but there's no guarantee.

funny how my halter top was loose. not that i lost weight or the thing is really lose on me, its just that i didnt tie it at the back. ok maybe i shouldnt say this since its totally out of point. but for anyone who asks and criticizes how unrefined my outfit looks like, it'll save me the bother of really attending to you guys and answering. so i rest my case.