flaunt what you got. but dont flaunt your fats

They say the world's ending today.

sorry to say, but just stop playing god. fortune tellers make no sense. plastic surgeons should just learn to say no and dont do work on people's body. genetic engineering shouldnt exist and celebrity parents should just accept how their child will look like when it really comes out.

sooo if you're trying to make your child look perfect so that its all lovely and pleasant looking, you care more about their looks than their character dont you think? in other words, you wont love your child if he or she is ugly? they say love is blind. when you start to love, your total focus would be only on the love itself hence you wont notice the other things around you. love is blind because, for you to fall in love, you have to be satisfied with every single flaw every single defect. when your child has a nose too big, that should be one of the reasons why you love him or her. dont get plastic surgery done on her, modify her even when she's not even reached her birth date yet. if your child has no flaw, thats when you can conclude that she's a barbie doll. but then again, a barbie doll is fake and plastic. which brings me back to my point: dont do plastic surgery.

im not condeming anyone who wants to get plastic surgery. all im saying is that, god made you this way to see how you'll cope with it, what you'll think about your looks, whether you'll handle it with patience. never call yourself ugly. never tell yourself you're someone who doesnt bring any good to the world.

when you think about all the beautiful things in the world, dont forget to count yourself in :)

lovely

Hehehee meet janice ;)



ha ha omg jan is almost turning 16 in less than a months time! you can say she's like the one who really lifts all my spirits up, am most comfortable with when we gossip and comforts me when im down. seriously speaking i really dont really know what will happen if i hadnt met her. one thing im super sure of is that, im pretty sure my life wouldnt be as colourful ;) love you jan<3

my toes hurt more than yours

my toes suffered yesterday because of inline skating. and today it suffered from dance! i feel like my shoe has no more friction too >.< but hey no pain no gain right. learnt a very interesting hip hop choreo for dance just now and it was pretty intense. i felt like i was in a gym. and i think i lost weight. ha ha you suckers who did not join dance can go bury a hole and hide yourself there. i hope all of you will never lose weight and be a watermelon.

soooo anyway it was my first time seeing terrence. and....he's very charming. ;) 

i have a deep feeling this saturday will be fun cause im meeting very lovely people. not so lovely though, i aint sure if i can really go. 

its friday tomorrow. 

i hope jia hui gets better. but i myself am tryna curse myself to fall ill. dont wanna run tomorrow. my feet's already dead. how am i gonna sprint? *_*

ANYHOO i had my starbucks caramel frapp today for half priced, venti sized with nusehahehoohoo. cant believe i accompanied her all the way to siglap just to get it before my dance starts. and congrats to nickelodean for being captain for bowling!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

do you know

I dont know how others might feel about what im gonna type.
perhaps they might feel annoyed that im as sour as a soursop or as emo as an...emoji?

nonetheless, i'll just type out what i feel like saying. even if its not grammatically correct or doesnt make any sense to any of you, it does to me.

we got back most of our results today. i dont know whether to smile or cry. i cant really cheer myself up anymore cause what im feeling right now is just pure denial and that if i do comfort myself saying that i'll do better next time is something pretty vague to me.
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i just felt like i disappointed my mum. i used her money for my education. i used her money to buy new clothes. i depend on my mum. and my mum had faith in me doing well. and i too actually. i studied very hard for my mid years but what i got back is not a single trace or evidence of my blood sweat and tears. it hurts. it hurts so much to think that you're so stupid and when everyone comforts you saying that you're not stupid, you just cant be bothered by their words cause you know yourself best and that they're only saying that as they....did better and are happy with their results. but you're not. you're just not.

and this mid yr result just kills me in every way. i dont know how to face my mum. i dont know how she'll take it and i dont know what she's gonna say to me, to my bro, to my sis to my dad. i dont know if she can see my hard effort taking the initiative to study every single day for at least 2 hrs. i dont know if she can see that inside her little girl's mindset is only to accomplish one thing:

and its to just make you proud.

but here i am just crying my lungs out, not being able to breathe and wonder if thats really possible. can you wait for me? wait for me to make you happy and to make you proud even if it takes me longer than expected?

sorry mum if im a disappointment. but i'll accept any punishment you give me. i'll accept any single scolding any hurtful words...i will accept it all. cause im trying to change mum. i want you to see me succeed. cause i know thats what you want me to be. and you want me to be happy too.

but mum,........ i'll be over the moon if you can see me succeed.
i'll be so happy that no money no brand name can compare.

i just dont want to disappoint you anymore... );

guys.

Just watched a few epi of bof at naseha's place with aura just now. and we squealed like a squirrel on steroids. i feel like having a boyfriend while watching it, before i watch it, and after i watch it. its like, every single thing they say just sets your heart on fire and just make you feel frickin' happy to be a girl. dont know how boys feel like when they're in love though.

These are a few things i find very lovable in a guy:
i'll exclude.......good-looking/ hot/ hot body/ nice/ funny/ gd personality/ rich/ gd fashion sense cause plainly they're all cliche sad to say.

1) SIDE SMILE. HOLY FREAK SIDE SMILE PLS.

2) at least 10cm taller than me thanks. frankly speaking, i want him to be at least 12cm taller? i figured that if i were to say at least 10cm taller instead of 12cm taller, i wouldnt sound so much of a bitch.

3) killer sleek smooth voice.

4) when im bruised physically, i want him to place a plaster on me :')

5) hold my hand in front of his friends.

6) take that last few seconds to hug me goodbye before he leaves.

7) protective of me.

8) hav some sense of leadership. i dont find it cute in any way when a guy asks me where to eat for example, and i'll be like "anything" and then he'll also say "i also anything". no. just no. i dont want to waste 15 mins of my life deciding on somewhere to eat. so, i like my guy...as a leader. but no overpowering.

9) lend me his jacket when im insecure.

10) hug me.

11) wipe my tears away from me

12) doesnt spoil me.

13) gets...jealous? ;)

14) just be another.....junpyo.

15) or be an yijeong.

16) classy.

17) kisses me on the forehead AHHHHHHHHHH OMG

18) ECT. ECT. ECT. ECT. ECT. ECT

i cant list every single thing i want here.
cause then.......ppl will call me crazy. hehe i'll stop now bye!

half empty

Nothing has been going well for me actually. maybe its just karma biting on my neck as the days go past. havent been blogging much since i've been going out every single day and coming back home pretty late. and when i do come home, i watch my momo love on the laptop or watch some other reality shows. anyway, i have been sick but i didnt really show it. once i go under the sun, i dont know if i'll crumble and just lay on the floor totally fit to be a stone or maybe i'll just melt like a popsicle and cats will lick me. maybe being licked by a cat aint so bad. hur hur hur. so i have been watching boys over flowers again ever since the last time i watched it which was when it aired on kbs, two yrs ago ;)

and one of the days, i met up with bffl and we went to flb6 which was i dont know, JUST MAD AWESOME. and also, we went to an abandoned place and just played monopoly deal at the lonely starbucks. if you guys noticed my blog has been usually more words, and less pictures. maybe i shall just put a few pics of may 16.








Dry post i must admit. i dont really have the mood for anything right now :/

my friday 13th

I didnt want to celebrate my friday the 13th alone at home watching momo love. so called naseha up and headed to her place with aura and we watched boys over flowers. haha super long ago show but naseha the slow poke hasnt watched it yet so no harm done watching it again. plus i miss every single moment of the show. i remember i was obsessed with watching it on tv almost every night.

so yeah, it was awesome fun just sitting there being couch potatoes with sore butts and eating junk food every single moment of the show and squealing at all those sweet romantic moments. ate ice cream and oreos which were pretty much an awesome combo and ate rice chips which they say is a preferred choice since..its healthier but i dont believe this kind of senile prank. i say....if you feel fat after eating it then yeah you did gain a few pounds and you are fat. ok. im just joking. soooo watched bof like non stop all the wayyyyy for hours and hours and we constantly changed our seats and positions to get the perfect view of the tv. and just laughed all the exam stress away. its been a few days since my exams has ended. but i cant help to not get over about that gut feeling after your exams all done and then you tend to rethink about how you have done for the paper and the feeling you get is just pure torture. i just screwed every paper i did for my mid year.

my friday wasnt creepy in any way. it was just...simple? they say the smallest things take up the biggest room in our hearts. who knew just hanging out watching movies all day long could be so fun.