my exams are over!

four best words ever for the day. by far.

i shall put a depressed picture of myself for this joyous day. off to meet janice ;)

monday blues aint so blue

Wassup i just got back from the ice cream shop where i did some productive studying and pastamania where i had spicy pasta. i dont know what has been up with my appetitie lately. seems like..its decreasing and my level of tolerance for consuming spicy stuff seems to deteriorate. and the weather recently has been killer. total killer. i felt toasted when i walked under the sun today. i guess this is how a bread must feel like getting toasted in an oven. and i think x-5 is very chic. much better than the rookies this day apart from block b which is pretty much the 3rd love of my life. twitter seems to be so......empty at this hr. pretty creepy. not to mention, im beginning to take a huge interest in folklore. maybe im just getting old. but hey no way hosay man. im only 15. and taylor swift told me that when you're 15, when someone tells you they love you, you gotta believe them.

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FIRSTLY WHAT KIND OF NONSENSE LYRICS IS THAT LIKE UHM OK SO NOW WHAT. WHEN AM I SUPPOSE TO BELIEVE SOMEONE DOESNT LOVE ME. ARE YOU IMPLYING THAT WHEN IM 15 I AINT SMART ENOUGH TO MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS. AND ARE YOU TELLING ME THAT.....WHEN IM 15, IM A LOSER WHO NEEDS LOVE IN MY LIFE SO WHEN SOMEONE JUST THROWS SOME FAKE LOVE TO ME, I'D JUST HAVE TO CAPTURE IT AND REMEMBER IT AND TREASURE IT?

way to go taylor swift.
when im 15, i learn the hard way. when someone tells me they love me and in the end i find out that its all a lie, i accept it. i accept the fact that i was being gullible and foolish to have believed that person. when im 15, i learn that I DO have people in the world who loves me for who i am and for who i hav become. i learn that you have to earn respect and love and you just dont get it immediately. when im 15, i learn in history class and i learn in social studies that i have to make inferences in life. when im 15, i begin to infer from your shitty song lyrics and think that all of this is total crap.. when im 15, i learn that im not living in a dream and know that not everything is smooth sailing and that this era im living in is total reality. and i cant comfort myself saying that everything will be a total fairytale. im not living in a fairytale.

i learn to suck it all up. and accept my mistakes.
cos thats life. and life isnt thinking you're in some fairytale.

what's on my mind

the 9th of may just started and im awake for the first 20 minutes already. right now, im feeling pretty angry. yeah i dont think anyone will understand me at all actually. not a good way to start my 9th of may. plus. the weather is annoying.

on a happier note there's no school today which explains why im still not in bed at this hr.

and i learnt about ANGELS for religious classes today. i learn whats really the true meaning of such magnificence and such....wonder. dont wanna imagine what angels looks like. no. i dont wanna imagine at all.

plus 2 more paper for me and i can call my mid year OVER for 2011.

and if no one's gonna hav blueberry pancakes with me then im just gonna hav it by myself

fantasy

dont really know whats wrong with me for the past couple of days. i dont know why im suddenly thinking about the fantasy world. you know those kind of legendary creatures that some say are a total myth and some say they are somewhat true. i dont know whats been going on with my mind and who has been playing around with my thoughts but i cant help but to be curious if they're really true or not. i mean, wont you guys wanna believe its true? i think if we have mermaids living in the sea, it'll be so majestic and fairies that hover around the forest filled with pine trees will be such a sweet sight, unicorns and pegasus hiding in a biiiiiig cave  and then the other down side where there'll be ogres and dragons that'll thirst on humans and blow fire or carry around a sledgehammer. sounds creepy but...wont you guys wanna believe its true?!??



my cousin told me they created a documentary on this and my sis told me that mermaids are supposedly those that sing and lure lions and eat them. ok im a barbie girl. have you guys watched barbie in a mermaid tale or mermaidia? i dont know if mermaids will look like that and i dont know if they look AS pretty as those in the barbie movies. but have you guys ever wondered how this ..... tale of mermaids just sparked out of nowhere? i have. i mean for someone to come up with a mermaid most prolly might have seen them before for prolly a half a second or a nanosecond right? maybe you guys think im childish thinking about this. the kid in me still hasnt came out. and dont give me nonsense saying that all this are baby tales. i bet you guys have thought about this before. its exactly the same as...."do dinosaurs exist"

saddening

you guys just gotta pity me man. im running out of pictures so fast i've been reusing my pics over and over again from my past blog. ok so we're given a long weekend which means school for us starts on tuesday which is pretty much of a good thing but i just cant help taking it for granted :( i feel pretty angry at myself for not studying at all today or even yesterday and its such a waste! im given extra time to catch up but here i am practically just staying in my own force field which wont even last long. once the exam starts, my force field will burst. pretty much like a bubble. and maybe i wont float and hover through the air anymore and the only thing im able to do is to just...fall. and whats so fun about falling when all you get is a bruise on your body which can pretty much be a permanent scar. and no one'll like scars. maybe i'll just stay up tonight.....and burn the midnight oil.

hard

W asked me what was love. and i couldnt answer. i tried googling it but google couldnt give me the right answers. and now im trying to find the answer myself. i think that love is somewhat indescribable. but i cant say so much about what i think since i hav no experience. maybe im too young to think about love. the only love i hav is for my friends and families. i thought that was love. but right now as im pushing through life, i do think that there are other kinds of love. i dont hav any strong feelings for any guy right now. but now im thinking, i guess love is total bliss. 

Guess what

Im almost done with mid year!!!!!!!!!!!! physics paper today was pretty killer for me and my ss&lit arent really smtg that im proud of. i hope i do well for literature though. like really well. but i dont know i didnt really finish my last 2 sentences. math is something that has never been my forte. so, i dont really wanna talk about math. on the plus side, there's a 4 day holiday for us which is pretty kewl. i can finally have a short break and catch up with some stuff perhaps. 2 more papers for me, and a few more weeks to the june holidays ;)



AND this picture of me was so old! the time when i had black lips and people thought i smoked. hmmm...