Irony

Sis quoted:

"If you are skinny and have awesome hair, you're automatically 30% prettier than what you already are" 

Kind of guessed this out, but a girl is never a girl without insecurities. It gets annoying and it may seem like its a form of seeking for attention. But then again why would someone seek for attention if he or she isnt satisfied with her looks? Wont you just mope and coop yourself up in the corner? Wont you hide away from everyone so that everyone wont judge you for your looks? Wont you want to vanish from the hurtful sarcasm, the blunt comments and how judgmental this whole universe can get? Wont you just want to cry in the corner cause you assume the whole world doesnt need you, doenst need to see you, doesnt need to care about someone who appreciates his/her looks? 

Sometimes i say to myself whats the point of having the word appreciation invented when no one feels it. No feelings is it? Cold blooded?

There are approximately 6 billion people in this world. More than half are ladies. 

From where i stand, i can see so many insecurities. But our job is to basically push ourself to push those insecurities away. Do whatever. Do absolute anything you can. Eat make up to feel prettier, put on a fake front, wear a mask on your face. Whatever. 

Cause frankly, no one in this world is gonna care if you're feeling inferior. They'll automatically feel better about themselves if they find someone who'se at least uglier than them. Or they'll bring down someone whom they look up to as a threat and will do wtv to make them sink. And when already sunken, there's no guarantee you wont sink any deeper anymore....There's so many unlikely people out there in this earth you cant even pick them out. 

Shallow. Shallow creatures. 

Why is everyone suffering so much when the waters arent even deep. Why is everyone getting ppl's comments into their heads, then questioning their strengths, their weaknesses, their looks. 

I dont even know why the word "ugly" even existed. Its already enough to make someone kill herself.

So i found out, there must be a reason why masquerades are invented. Im highly guessing this is one of them. 

"Who would wanna date ugly people? "

These people make me puke. And question my appreciation to be brought in this world. Dont you guys dare to bring me down any further. 

Before the dawn

How's the new layout?? :)



Tried sakae sushi for the first time and it was really good!! Pretty cheap for such great deals let me tell you that ;)

 

So have i mentioned that i hav a grudge against school? Especially since jit takes advantage of us for the class spirit award. I'd rather be at home mopping the floor.

Something to aim for

Okay lets get my side bangs back next week......

Temptation

Rich people are bored being rich while the poor longs for money and health.

These are some things i wanna get done by the end of this year:

1) Some ripped denim cause i think its cute. 
2) Knitted cardi specifically if its batwinged or oversized cos im cool like that
3) More high socks cos i like
4) Treatment/ Relaxing/ Rebonding/ D.Perm cos my hair is made up of HAY
5) New wedges cause i want
6) Maroon high cuts cause i want

AND FINALLY my mustard OSF maxi and an envelope clutch.

So i ask myself where's all the money cause i rlly could some right now..

EEW i sound like hayley williams in AIRPLANES. 

Boomchickawowow

Have a super strong urge to change my layout. Random but, am scared that my degree got higher. Dont want my  lazy eye to deteriorate and my degree to get worse.

Sigh. the many stressful reasons of a 15 yr old.

Wtv la i dont even know why im getting so stressed. All my maid's fault.



This was when my maid didnt come along during the KL wedding. Such a blissful and perfect moment. We all looked so happy its a miracle!!!!!!!!!!!!

Crunch

Playing my laptop in my bed is an exasperating and irritating yet highly addictive task.

Connection has been pretty rough and bad connection is NEVER in any way GOOD. So i decided to blog to kill off time and just to keep this place updated so nothing's so super boring.

So i youtube-d on the "most expected thing coming from me" things which is...RICE.
Lol for further specification, i youtube-d "HOW TO MAKE SUSHI RICE"

Not a great idea cause now im craving for rice but some pretty cool knowledge to let me know that the day is not such a huge let down and that i did learn smtg out of living in a day.

So there IS such thing as "SHORT GRAINED JAPANESE RICE"
And it got me thinking if taiwan sells this kind of rice so im going to make sure i pay money to the dance girls to hopefully get for me a small packet of uncooked short grained rice from there whether it being jap, taiwan or thai rice. I think im srsly pretty krazy going all nuts about rice but im just being....appreciative of what we have ^^v

Anw twitter is getting on my nerves. JUST SAYING.

Admiration failure

Warning: This post...idc how u guys may see me as. Ihdc.

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I dont know how my mum deals w you. I've been trying to figure out how she manages to be patient w you over the past few years. Im honestly trying to frickin figure out w my holy big brain how in the flipping heck she just brushes off your pms attitude. Some days you're really super nice. Its like you've hit the jackpot and you're being as vibrant as ever and as a lovely yellow sunshine you shine with your brightest rays that just screams joyous. And then some days you just show attitude cause you're bored and tired of doing the chores in the house, and when my mum doesnt give you money or I DONT KNOW WHAT OTHER CRAP REASONS you're pissed off while working in this house. who am i to say "working". We frickin treat you like a queen here compared to other hellholes in the country. wait, correction- i meant in the whole world. Srsly whats your problem? Its not my fault you chose to become a maid. Its not my fault you're unhappy. Its not my fault you self proclaimed yourself to be part of the family. Its not my fault you're always having pms.

Its MY fault however for choosing you over that other maid while i was at the maid agency MANY FRICKIN primary school years ago.

MY FAULT. MY FAULT.

Srsly whats your motive being here apart from money? The feeling of accomplishment? The responsibility to raise a family? No sarcasm intended but yeah great reasons.

But whats your motive for throwing my bro's ns bag like its a piece of junk, a piece of trash that belongs in the dump? Dyou think you are of such high authority to be lounging in all these acts? Even I, THE YOUNGER SISTER have no guts to be throwing arnd his property. Have you heard of respect? Have you heard of being considerate? Have you heard of being a lil more controlling over your impatient behaviour instead of waving hands about showing only SULK in between the lines of the forehead, in between the cheeks and tiny cells that make up a face? Dyou think i would really care if you are not the least bit happy in the house?

YA I DO CARE ACTUALLY. I DO CARE. WHY?

CAUSE IM A FRICKIN NICE ANGELIC SOUL THATS WHY.

Now i suffer being in the depths of you. Yeah sure you do your job great, yeah sure your food is really great but whats the point of ticking all the boxes when you havent even ticked the most important one.

I have yet to see why you're still worthy of being part of the family. Cause apparently, thats the box you havent ticked. Save your aching muscles and save your breath mopping the floor cause being part of the family requires love and care and patience. Dont mean to rock your boat, but family in my household is hard to earn. In other words, you'll never be family.

I hope disney takes you in as snow white's wicked witch that poisons w a red apple.

Cheer up.

At least some attention will be diverted to you.  And oh boy isnt that what you always wanted.